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♥ Monday, November 28 ♥
Hold You Tonight...I never thought I could feel like this, You turn my world upside down I never thought I could love you this way I just want you to know And everytime I look out my window I wish that you would be here ´Cuz everytime that I see you baby It feels like walking on air ´Cuz I´ll be by your side But I don’t know if I`ll be on your mind So tell me is it right feeling blue If you´re out there Looking for me I wanna hold you tonight I wanna touch you right now Because I wanna be there when you are sleeping And anything you say I´ll do it for you And I just wanna be there by your side I wanna hold you tonight I don’t know where you are Where you are now But I´ll be waiting for you Playing tricks with my heart Won`t get me down When I know you´re around Cuz I`ll be by your side I wanna hold you If I could show you You would know that I still care If you still want me You know that I´ll be there And I`ll be by your side But I don’t know if I´ll be on your mind So tell me is it right feeling blue I f you´re out there When I want you here 'and i'll be there baby....  left her thoughts ♥ 9:53:00 PM
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f*ck that librarian..f*ckin old hag... gave me one f*ckin warning letter... for drinkin.. f*ck her la... everyone hates her.. and now i do.... left her thoughts ♥ 5:59:00 PM
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*boohoo*..stupid Guoping... he's treating me like a maid.. i feel like killin him, and he placed a dustbin right in front of my face.. stupid bugger.. not going for training today... feelin tired... baby, i miss you.. hee.. left her thoughts ♥ 4:37:00 PM
♥ Sunday, November 27 ♥
met *baby* just now and we went to da gym..had a good workout.. i feel good.. i put on 1 kg... happy in da sense that i'm nearer to the minimum weight for my weight cat.. need to put on 3 more kg to hit the required weight.. but i'm not gonna put on weight.. and i'm sad in da sense that i'm FAT!!... nvm.. since my arms are big now, i might as well tone up my muscles.. thanks for the company... we'll work out more ok baby??.. i love you.. i'm addicted to you like bees are to honey... i'm the bee and you're the honey... =) left her thoughts ♥ 8:21:00 PM
♥ Saturday, November 26 ♥
Baby came back yest...i'm so happy... met Baby in da afternoon, i was extremely overjoyed to see him... its been 3 weeks... Army deprived me of my baby... anyway,we went to watch -The Exorcism Of Emily Rose-.. was trembling almost throughout the whole movie.. not that its scary... but its somethin i cld relate to.. and i was scared... Baby asked me if we wanted to leave the theatre... this is the 1st time i've reacted this badly to a movie... Baby said i was shakin like a leaf.... anyway,its a good movie.... and we walked around for a lil while. and baby sent me home... he's been gone for awhile now, and i'm already missin him like crazy... i love you baby...... so much.............. left her thoughts ♥ 11:41:00 PM
♥ Thursday, November 24 ♥
do opposite really attract??when both characters clash?? would it be only unhappiness?? i've never had so many unhappy talks before.. sometimes i just don't understand.. i never meant any harm,i never meant to offend.. but why wld it always end up being little petty arguments?? i don't know.. this is new to me.. i never came across this before.. nevermind. i guess i'll just have to change my ways.. i'll get used to it... been sayin sorrys all the time... even when i'm not in the wrong.. but i'll still apologise... sometimes i wonder why i'm always giving in.. not totally referring to now... but yea... am i that dumb to just give in all the time?? all these while i've been keepin quiet most of the time.. cryin silently to myself... i feel like i have no control over myself... i practically let others control me..... i let others control my emotions.. i give in because i don't want any unpleasantness.. when sometimes,i feel its not even my fault.. totally pathetic.. this is just how i'm feeling... just let things be... i'm already numb.. left her thoughts ♥ 11:31:00 PM
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in the library room with *purple*..poor girl... her lappy is crashin on her... ARHH...i totally agree with her.. ACER SUCKS.... my lappy is also dying on me.. arh... DUN BUY ACER LAP TOPS OK!... 1 More Day!!.. and BABY'S BACK!!!!.......... tomorrow no sch,but gotta go back to sch for project meeting.sighs.. baby,i miss you left her thoughts ♥ 4:11:00 PM
♥ Wednesday, November 23 ♥
its wednesday!!!...2 more days !!!!!!!!!!!!!! and baby's coming back... i cant wait.. i'm so excited.. yippy yippieeeeee yeay yeay!!!!... sch's gonna be so exciting for me.. coz i know at the end of sch.. the day's gonna end.. and i'm gonna be sooo close to baby's return.. YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...... _I LOVE YOU!!!!!_ left her thoughts ♥ 2:45:00 PM
♥ Tuesday, November 22 ♥
its 3 am,i cant sleep...woke up suddenly feelin as miserable as ever.. i keep thinkin about what he said... and now i cant help feelin lousy bout myself.. i know all of us are sad over skippiee... but does it really mean that i cant keep pets for nuts? i don't know.. i miss skippiee... so much.. and its my fault. the words you said,was hurtful.. i don't good about myself.. i feel like if anything "bad" happends.. you'll somehow put me down, and i'll feel lousy about myself den i already am. and i feel like..i've disappointed you again.. and in this case...i don't know what wrong i did.. i swear i took good care of skippiee. i loved skippiee as much... but i don't know why skippiee left.. i really don't... am i really that bad?? am i always doing the wrong things? am i really like that in your eyes? sometimes i feel as thou i just cant live up to your expectations.. sighs.. i feel miserable......very very.... _siGhS_ left her thoughts ♥ 4:02:00 AM
♥ Monday, November 21 ♥
Skippiee died this morning...wanted to say goodbye to it before i go to school. but i found skippie lyin in its cage,not moving.. was crying like shit.. its all my fault,i did not take good care of him... baby's isnt back yet.and he does not even have a chance to say goodbye to skippiee... skippiee was running to me last night.. it fell asleep on my lap.. i wished i hadnt let it go. den it would not have left me... sighs.. i miss skippiee.. skippiee please come back... come back to me.. i want you to squeal when you see me... i want you to run to me.. i want you to sleep in my shirt again... skippiee...don't go.... i'm sorry... may you rest in peaace...... i love you skippiee...  _cries_ left her thoughts ♥ 11:36:00 AM
♥ Saturday, November 19 ♥
went to Alicia's house this mornin to do project.was rather a fun time.. all were laughin at me coz i was dressed as a 8-yr old kid.. and i had to wear her sister's clothes.. and her sis is... ONLY 8 YEARS OLD... aarhhhhh.. ahahah. anyway,left her house around 3pm and headed down to Kallang for training.. 1/3 of my toenail's gone coz we trained bare-footed on the road... after training,we went to Bugis for awhile.. and went home after that.. tomorrow morning is Weight-In day... i dropped my weight to 41. i need to drop it further.... no water and food tml morning.. and we're gonna run with our jackets to lose our water mass... sighs..... and i realised my age category is from 17-40 years old. so if i'm lucky,i might be fighting with a 17 year old.. if i'm unlucky,i might be fighting with a 35 year old... ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH........ _scared_ left her thoughts ♥ 11:41:00 PM
♥ Thursday, November 17 ♥
you know, i really don't know what the HELL you want from me..you made me pissed again.. i try and you are still freaking unreasonable.. i trained like Sh*t during training, almost cried during training cause i could not stop. coach did not allow me to... and after training,i forgo my dinner and came back home.. F*ckin tired.. and i get SH*t from you once again... cant you even think about me for once?? and not about you and you and you....... i tried so hard.. i balanced my school work and training.. i did all my tutorials.. WHAT MORE DO YOU WANT FROM ME????????????? i feel like breaking down............ i hate this.. i hate this... i hate you for makin feel this way.. you're not even helping me... you don't even encourage me for God's sake... I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!........... left her thoughts ♥ 11:01:00 PM
♥ Tuesday, November 15 ♥
ok.i'm sorry.its just that.. i'm just very unhappy with the way you talk to me most of the time.. i'm unhappy with the way you put things across.. if you are angry,i'm human too.. and so i get frustrated too.. and i cant shout back.. and there's no other way to vent my frustrations.. not on myself definitely.. so...i vent it here.. sighs.. sometimes i'm really really really really disappointed with your reaction.. nothing is good enough for you... nothing i do is good enough for you.. i feel so pressurized many times.. you don't know me.. thats sad... you don't know the way i think.. thats sad.. or prolly you're right.. i'm not good enough.. i never am... even if i try a lil harder.. instead of encouraging me.. you pin point at what i didnt do.. more like..what you think i should do.. you never encouraged me.. not many times... and many many times, i just feel soo disheartened by your words.. have you ever thought of that???.. i don't know,i don't know what to do anymore... sighs... _double sigh_ left her thoughts ♥ 11:26:00 PM
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call yourself SUPPORTIVE...you're FAR from even the "S" of Support... you never fail to put me down and piss me off.. talk about following you.. please... all of us are born differently. different characters and different ways of workin.. so,i cant be like you.. AND I DON'T WANT TO BE LIKE YOU... just to let you know.. I'VE NEVER DREAMT of being like you.. LET ALONE THINK... coz if i were to be like you.. oh my... my life is gonna be a freakin disaster.. sooo..no thanks... sometimes you really make you dislike you so much.. i've told you that so many times... a love-hate relationship.. i wanna come home after a long day feelin happy... just wanna have a peaceful night.. but i don't.. i never did... and i'm sick of it... i really am.. and i think he feels it too... _siGhS_ left her thoughts ♥ 10:55:00 PM
♥ Monday, November 14 ♥
met *purple* after sch,accompanied her to Acer Service Centre... Acer laptop SUCKS.. mine's a lil problematic too.. slow in startin programss.. after that,went to her house.. and we slept.. waited for *peacock* to come and we had a game of badminton... played for awhile and we went to eat and headed home.. *baby* called me in da bus.. every phone call you make to me,is just so precious... its just like,the closest i can get to you... i love you baby.. i love you, i love you, i love youuuuu......... good night baby... _sMilEs_ left her thoughts ♥ 11:55:00 PM
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i'm so so so happy...*baby* called me.. he's back from outfield.. missed his voice... i could drown myself in your sweet sweet melody.. i just miss you.. _lovelove_ left her thoughts ♥ 12:17:00 AM
♥ Sunday, November 13 ♥
baby...i miss you like crazy.. dreamt of you yest.. that we were astronauts..heh heh.. and we travelled to another planet to live.. another planet with humans.. but of a lower standard of living.. we shared room and house with many other people... and i was tryin to run away cause someone was tryin to kill me... =(.. baby,come back quick.. skippiee and i will be waitin for you.. skippiee wants to lie on you... he misses you so so much... he's lonely without you.. cant have guniea pig talk with you...HAHHA... WE MISS YOU DEARLY!!!!!!! _love you_ left her thoughts ♥ 4:02:00 PM
♥ Saturday, November 12 ♥
the match is on the 11-12 of dec i think..not really sure.. but i sure am so scared... mama wanna go support me... but i need boxing gloves... prolly head down to lana shop to buy gloves.. sighs.. i don't know if i'm ready to fight.. i don't wanna be a sand back over there... and i hope baby will support me too... but he might be busy... sighs.. i dunno.... =( _confused_ left her thoughts ♥ 12:12:00 PM
♥ Friday, November 11 ♥
went for training yest,was told that there was a match in dec, a All-style match. all fighting under 1 rule,only kicks and punches.. training is gonna be hard from now.. sighs... hope i can... and i really hope i wont get trashed... =) baby,i miss you.... =) _love you_ left her thoughts ♥ 9:43:00 AM
♥ Monday, November 7 ♥
went for track today..totally tired out,haven't done this kinda exercise for a longg time.. actually,i haven't even ran this much. haha.. good exercise... anyway, came home after training.. tomorrow i've got kick boxing... *baby* called me at 10.. we talked for about an hour... i'm so happy.. i get to talk to *baby* for so long.... i missed him so so so much... thanks for the effort baby.. thanks for making it a point to call me everyday.. i'm so happy with you... i'm so glad i made this choice to be with you.. or else,i'd have regretted it for a lonnngg time.. ___________________________________________ i'm glad i'm free-ed from someone.. i realised that,my greatest mistake was to be with him. i wished i had not entertained his msgs right from the start.. i should have seen thru him.. i should have opened my eyes freakin wide to see who he really was.. but i'm so glad that i've got nothing to do with him anymore.. and i really don't wanna have ANYTHING to do with him.. not now,not ever... i'd be so ashamed.... i must at least treat myself right.... and not be made use of.. i hate you,i really do.... and i know you're reading this.. so please...... go away...and i really mean it.. stop faking your so called "concerns".. i believed you never did... all you ever cared was....you know what.. i'm glad i didnt fall into that trap again..... Never will i be so foolish again to listen to you... i'm done with you. so you should be done with me by now.or longgg time ago. so stop sayin you miss me cause i know you don't... stop makin yourself seem like you think of me. cause you're thinkin of me and missing me for all the fuckin wrong reasons. so stop it.... it'd be much appreciated..... thank you.. _=)_ left her thoughts ♥ 11:20:00 PM
♥ Sunday, November 6 ♥
sighs..somethin bad happened today.. and i'm totally upset over it... i've never cried this hard for a few years now.. my heart was hurtin like crazy... i couldnt stop cryin... skippiee,don't die.. don't leave me here.. sighs.. i promise i wont let it happen to you again.. i'll keep you away from her... please be fine... all because of a temper that she cldnt control. and she had to vent it on skippiee... kept banging the cage on the floor... the cage could break if she bang-ed it a few more times... sighs.. i'm mad with her... for doin that to skippiee... -cries-.. its not fair.. nothin should happen to skippiee.. it has been good.. urgg... i wanted to leave the house with skippiee.. but i don't know how to carry it with me.. so i guess i'll stay home and make sure nothin happens to skippiee... sometimes... i wish she wasnt like that.. love-hate relationship... sighs... but like dad said... i must tolerate and give in... and ya..after all,she's my mum... _saddened_ left her thoughts ♥ 3:41:00 PM
♥ Friday, November 4 ♥
went to sch for a lect..didn't go for the rest.. think i wasted my time comin to school this week.. came only for an hour... and nothin was taught.. lame lecturers.. today's lecturer.... said this.. " SIM is also not bad.... its priority for those who cant get into SMU,NTU,NUS. can go SIM... so,SIM not that bad." like WTF??????????..... what is he talkin about man.... all of us were like -_-" .. arh...nvm..anyway, met *purple* at library... waited for *ronald* and *peacock* to finish sch.. and we headed town after that... caught -Doom-.. cool movie... the monsters were so coolll.... and talkin of which, the sad part was that *baby* called me twice......!!!!!!! and i didnt feel the vibration coz my phone was in the bag..... $#$&^ ...... I AM SO PISSED WITH MYSELF!!!!!!!!!! *sobs*... how can i ever miss *baby's* calls!!!.. especially when he's in australiaaaaaaaaaa......... ='( .......... sighs... i'm so angry with myself... arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh........... i'm sooo sorry baby... sorry sorry sorry........ i wanna hear your voice again..... =( _pissed_ left her thoughts ♥ 11:57:00 PM
♥ Thursday, November 3 ♥
woke up this mornin to *baby's* msg..he was tryin to get me the whole mornin.. very sweet of him to call me from aust.. heart warming to hear his voice once again.. guess it isnt that bad after all.. at least we get to keep in touch somehow.. =) anyway..i miss you baby.. =) _hApPY_ left her thoughts ♥ 2:56:00 PM
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just came home not long ago..went to send *baby* off to da airpork.... oops...i mean airport.....=) was a lil reluctant to leave... sad to see him go... so near yet so far... we were separated by the glass door.... he kept lookin back.. i thought i wld be there for the night.. cldnt bear to leave... baby,you've gone for awhile and i'm missing you like mad. i miss your voice.. i miss your smile... i miss you tellin me you love me.. i miss you callin me nut.. i miss you squeezing me so tightly.. i miss your silly faces.. i miss you fussing over me... baby.... I MISS YOUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!! come back...come back!!!..... sighs...if only you cld.... _=( _ left her thoughts ♥ 12:27:00 AM
♥ Tuesday, November 1 ♥
I Believe My HeartWhenever I see your face The world disappears All in a single glance So revealing You smile and I feel as though Ive known you for years How do I know to trust what Im feeling I believe my heart What else can I do When every part of every thought Leads me straight to you I believe my heart Theres the world of choice For now when ever my heart speaks I can only hear your voice A life time before we met Has faded away How did I live a moment Without you You don't have to speak at all I know what you'd say And I know every secret About u I believe my heart It believes in you Its telling me that What I see Is completly true I believe my heart How can it be wrong It said that what I feel for you I will feel my whole life long I believe my heart It believes in you Its telling me that What I seeIs completly true I revolve my song I believe my heart the voice that what I feel for you is a perfect one left her thoughts ♥ 8:32:00 PM
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went to sch yest,stupid sch.... made the lect so late.. wanna go out also cannot... anyway, *baby* sent me to sch,and waited in da library for me till i ended my lect.. and we travelled all da way to Simei to Pets Safari to buy stuff for skippiee. recently,there has been this brown tiny insect on skippiee's fur. i think its mites.. anyway,bought this mite,lice killer.. but it doesnt seem to work.. well i guess its not magic. but i'm afraid the mites might multiply... they MITE after all...hahahaha and we bought this lil igloo house for skippiee.. it not tt lil...coz it occupies half the cage, prolly the cage is a lil small.. but anyway....... i saw cute puppies over there... so small,so adorable. i liked this baby terrier and husky.... sooo cute... oh,and there was a kitten too.. awwwwwww.it was sooooooooooooooooooooooooo cutttteeeeeeeeeeeeee......... arh...i can go crazy just lookin at the animals... small and cuddly... just like BABY.... SMALL and CUDDLY.. just that baby has no fur.. hurhurhur....... after that we came home to wash skippiee up... tried to kill the mites.... but i guess it mite not be killed after all... WHAHHAHAA........ ok,i'm lamed..... and baby came over again... i guess its the last night i'm gonna spend with him... he's flying off TML!!!!!!!!...... URGHHHHHHHH.................. ^%*&%$#*%.. SO FASTTTTTTTTTTTTTT........ -sobs- i guess i'll send baby off tomorrow if he allows.. oh..my Harry Potter book's with him.. so i guess..i have to get it back from him.. heh heh heh... good plan.. now i'm startin to like Harry Potter... anyway....am stayin home today.. hmm.. i think i've been missin out on ALOT of parties....heh.. but nvm... i get to spend time with my baby.. lovelove.. _i'll Miss YOu bBAy_ left her thoughts ♥ 10:43:00 AM
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